CRISIS! They are not fun

Today was one of those tough days where you contemplate giving up (i never do).  I went to take a test at Christian Oth's studio for an image processing job, after talking with Christian I had a feeling that he thinks I'm not experienced enough for the position, cause he seemed concerned that I have NO paid experience, except for shooting.  They said I'd hear from them so I'm not giving up on that.  But heres where the crisis starts, I went to the Miracle Maids office to pick up an $80 pay check for doing some cleaning last week, and on the way home I saw my landlady who was wondering about rent.  So I forked over the $80 I had for literally 5 minutes, anyone who's experienced this, I AM SOOOO SORRY, it's possibly one of the worst feelings ever.  So I'm left with $2 to my name and the credit cards are threatening to sell my account to collection agencies if  I don't get my act together, and a cell phone bill thats 3 months over due, and my $2 will get me to my internship but not back.  So with doom in mind I posted my light meter and my photo bag on craigs list, and also posted my resume.  Then took a nap, stress does horrible things to your body, when I came to my landlady said she felt bad cause I left her a message saying I'm selling some of my equipment to make rent, and told me to call her tomorrow and we'd work it out.  Then Dave came over to sign some model releases for photos I took, and I told him my story, and like the nice guy he is got me some business cards and loaned me $20.  So this story has a happy ending, I'm just not too sure how many more days of this stuff I can take, I'm running on fumes here, sometimes I laugh to myself and ask "how the hell have you made it this long?"

Peace and love,

Willy J